This past Sunday, a sudden vibration on the right side of my hip woke me up from a nap in the middle of the day. I was lying on my back on the couch with my feet elevated on the arm of the couch when I felt this vibration that was almost, but not quite like the vibration of my phone. It was continuous. And my sleeping self tried to lift my hand to answer the phone because that's what I thought it was. I couldn't do it, for reasons unknown. And I thought I would just let my phone continue ringing. But just like it happens all the time when my phone rings, I thought I could just check who was calling. But then I couldn't open my eyes. And I started to panic. I couldn't move, yet this vibration persisted. I thought that maybe this is how a body starts to disintegrate. The beating of the heart accelerates and then stops. Eyes can't and won't be opened. Limbs can't and won't be lifted. But then I woke up, quite suddenly. I checked my phone which was on the coffee table and there wasn't any notification; no missed call, no text, no email. I stood up and went to make myself a cup of tea. Since then, I've been trying to figure out where is it my subconscious drifts to that causes vibrations so strong they almost feel real. Where is it do I dream?
The title of this post is from the song Nothing's Real by Shura.
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